My home is still under construction. Please excuse the mess. I plan on furnishing it with
many things to entertain you and provoke your thoughts. I hope you will enjoy being here.
 

       Let's chat about cyberspace. This is where I live 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, month in, month out, year by year for 3 years now. I no longer even live in real life anymore. I am grateful to have had the opportunity to leave real life behind me and live completely in this new electronic civilization. I awkae to the World Wide Web and IRC. I work here. I play here. I don't even disconnect to sleep. I line camp for weeks at a time. I disconnect to do my computer maintenance and reconnect immediately. I have my paychecks direct deposited in my checking account. I make electronic payments online. I even pay the supermarket online and have groceries and household supplies delivered to my door. Ofcourse I do leave the house to take out the garbage. *LOL*

      It would be most honest to say that I am agorophobic, among other mental health issues. I never felt safe in the real world. I no longer need to deal with that. I am safe here. There is no violence in cyberspace. Noone to hit or be hit. Yet we touch and are touched if we have the capacity of spirit to do so. I love people in cyberspace because most here have the intelligence and enlightenment to realize this. I was once asked, "What is more vast than the universe?". I answered, "The mind". This is the universe of cyberspace...the mind...the heart...the soul. Whatever you can concieve, feel or dream can exist here. The physical universe may now have been proven to be a closed system, but cyberspace goes infinitely beyond it. If you merely think of it as a machine the sits on a desk in front of you, you are forlornly shortsighted.

     We meet in chatrooms, many of which exist in cities of chatrooms...Geocities, Fortune City, Chatropolis, WBS, AOL, to name only a few. We have homepages in thes cities in our own webspace. Busnisses, recreation and studies all merge into a new civilization. And we are still gregarious and congregate and communicate. This is not a mere extention to the civilization of the real world. It is as unique and new as the birth of the printing press. Join us. If you can, move your furniture into it and live with us.
 
 

About me...

     I am transexual...yes, I was born a man. I have had this condition since my earliest memories. I still have the body of a man, but I no longer live as a man. I once tried to live in the real world as a woman, but could not do so. I live at home and in cyberspace as a woman now. I take Premarin (estrogen) and Provera (progesterone) to bring my life as close as I can to that of a woman. Some of you may not believe in the existance of this condition...Gender Identity Disorder...but that does not matter to me. You can not hurt me anymore. I am accepted here. So here shall I live. I am also a Disabled American Veteran...a life member. I suffer from paranoid schizophrenia, bipolar manic/depression, post traumatic stress disorder, and alcoholism/drug addiction (14 years clean & sober). The stress of living as a woman in public and the social rejection was just too much along with my other disorders, so I am very happy at home now and here in cyberspace. The Veterans Administration takes good care of me.

      I was born and raised in Saint Paul, Minnesota. I have an older brother and sister. My mother was a saint and my father was an ass. I spent most of my life as a landscaper changing carreers to computers in 1985. I have been permanently disabled by the Veterans Administration since 1993. I found the internet in 1995 and moved my furniture right into it. I do not want to belabor my history here. I will devote a page to it for those who are interested.